Jen- Week 1

I have read James many times and like many books of the Bible different verses stand out or mean somthing all together differently than before.

S- James 1: 19-21 Understand this, my dear brothers and sisters:You must all be quick to listen,slow to speak and slow to get angry. Human anger does not produce the righteousness God desires. So get rid of all flith and evil in your lives and humbly accept the word God has planted in your hearts, for it has the power to save your souls.

O- I so many times give into my earthly flesh when it comes to my tongue. The Lord has really convicted me of that during the last year. I know God does not want me responding in haste and without thought. Its easy to say that but a whole other in the hear of the momment! I never thought of being a humbling act to step back, take a breath and remember the Truth.

A- To control my tongue. Not to respond to people and situations as soon as people come to me for advice or if I find something out. I really need to go to God before I even talk to Dan or other friends. I need to learn that sometimes there is a time when I don't need to say or do anything.  God will reveal to me when the time is right.

P-I have been hurt a lot by people who I thought were my true friends.I had confided in them and they have gossiped. People's true characters have come out. Its really made me put walls up and pull back. I no longer feel comfortable sharing what's truly on my heart to them. I have been really angry and have said things that I shouldn't have said (I was wrapped up in the moment). Those friendships are now changed. Through this I have found out who my true friends are and the ones I can share openly with about anything.He has also placed many new friends in my path that I might have not met or taken the time to get to know. I have also realized I don't have to be with friends with everyone.(That has been huge for me!) I guess my prayer is that healing will take place and that I will be slow to speak and to get angry. Also part of me wants to warn my other friends of the other  people's behavior. I don't want to step across that line but I don't want to see other people get hurt like I did. So I guess wisdom.

This has really been eating me up. The only people I have shared the above with is ya'll, Dan, Kay Denny (She lives here now and her son and Grant are best buds. We have gotten really close in the last year and half.), and my best friend here Lauren.

Love you girls!